Void

The Story Behind Void

Void feels different from the rest of The Firmament Collection. While many pieces in this series emerged from layers of deep black, this one poured itself out on an almost weightless, open background—pale, raw, exposed.

This mixed media and oil portrait of a woman, eyes closed, head tilted back, and mouth slightly open, feels like a breath held too long. The drips, stains, and loose marks carry a kind of unfinished ache, like something breaking open but not yet resolved. It’s uncomfortable. It’s raw. It’s honest.

For me, Void captures the tension I felt in the season before returning to faith—the stretch between knowing there must be something more and feeling completely unable to reach it. I remember standing in worship one Sunday, wanting so badly to believe, but feeling numb, hollow, stuck in the silence of my own mind. This piece is that moment on canvas—the ache of wanting to connect with God, but not knowing how to find my way back.

The muted earth tones and soft flesh-like shades make this piece feel fragile, almost unfinished, as if it could dissolve into the canvas at any moment. And maybe that’s the point. Void isn’t about arrival. It’s about the messy, human experience of longing for something beyond yourself—of holding the ache without numbing it, and daring to hope that something sacred might meet you there.

Sometimes, the breakthrough begins in the void.
Sometimes, that’s where God starts to rebuild.

Void holds space for the questions, the ache, and the honest in-between.
It’s a portrait of what it feels like to long for light before you can see it.

Specifications:

Series: Firmament, Duality of Transformation

Medium: Mixed Media

Size: 11”x14”

Framed original mixed media oil painting on gallery wrapped canvas. Ready to hang.